Ouch!

Lauren,

Mommy was sooo bad. Last Saturday night before you went to bed, I changed your diaper and left you on the bed to go wash my hands. I don't know what I was thinking. You normally just stay there when you're tired and sleepy, but I should have known that you would roll around or try to walk off. I looked in the mirror and saw you sitting up, only you were at the very edge of the bed. I turned around and you looked at me and I looked at you saying "Oh My God" a million times as I rushed over to try to catch you but knew that I wouldn't be able to make it in time. You fell off the bed backwards and your little body bounced. I grabbed you from the floor and hugged you so tightly as you cried. I nearly cried myself. Mommy was so so stupid. You have separation anxiety worser than ever and I should have known that you would try to come to me. I am so so so sorry. After Daddy calmed you down, I took you to sleep with me in your bedroom where your bed is much lower. I still sometimes see you falling off and I get so angry with myself.

I love you so much and would hate for anything bad to happen to you. You are my everything.

On another note, I've been letting you go diaper-free here and there. You're starting to realize that if you pee, there will be water on the floor and you'll want to play with it, which you do. I think it's funny but it is quite dirty. I get a good laugh out of it.

I love you always.

Mommy.