Chinese/Vietnamese New Year 2014

Cry

Lauren,

I know it's been months since I've written to you but something so magical happened yesterday I keep on replaying it in my head over and over again. I love you so much.

Mommy has been feeling down about not getting pregnant yet, especially yesterday. As I was driving and you were sitting in the back seat, I asked you if you wanted a sibling. You said no. I asked if you wanted Mommy to have another baby. You said no. That's comforting to me right now because I don't want to break your heart if you would've said yes.

When we got home, I somehow managed to break down and cry, with my hands in my face. You weren't quite sure what was going on, but as you lifted my head, you saw that I was crying. Then you said "crying?" I said yes, Mommy's crying. Mommy is sad. You said "no cry" and gave me the biggest smile, tilted your head to the side, and just smiled. Then I grabbed a tissue but you took it from me and wiped my tears away. You just kept saying no crying and hugged me and looked at me with a sweet smile.

That took my breath away. I have you and I am happy. Period.

I love you always.

Mommy