Just a few days till Christmas...

Lauren,

Christmas is almost here. I bought you some really sentimental thoughtful gifts, gifts that no one else can give you. I bought a Hallmark recordable book, titled "All the Ways I Love You." Even then, the book cannot express how much love I have for you. I can't wait to record it for you this weekend so that you can keep forever and hear me read to you even when I'm not near.

A week ago, 20 children and 6 adults died in CT. It was truly a horrific tragedy. I will not comment much on it. It breaks my heart to much to think about so I secretly try not to read the media and tune it out because it hurts too much. Being a parent has changed me. I cannot imagine anything ever happening to you. I feel a sense of pain and it breaks my heart to imagine what these parents are going through. It just hurts.

In the midst of everything, I know God our Savior is here and He is good. He is with us and will be with us so there is nothing to fear. I know the Lord will watch you, take care of you and be with you. I pray for you everyday. I love you more than the world. I love you always.

Merry Christmas,

Mommy

You call me Mommy

Lauren,

You call me Mommy. I call you Baby. You give me kisses. I give you hugs. More than anything, we give each other love.

Hearing you call me Mommy is like music to my ears. It's the sweetest sound. It melts my heart. It feels like I've waited forever to hear you call me Mommy. It's not your first time, but you now consistently say it and you know that it's for me, and only me. I hear you call for me when you want me to pick you up, to hold you, when you're scared, when you're asking for me and just because.

You call me Mommy, and for that, I thank you.

I love you always Baby,

Mommy